Day 12 ~ 2nd try at the 30 Day Shred

So I tried the shred again today, and must say I did a bit better then yesterday. I weighed myself (was up a pound from yesterday.. not sure why) and set up my mat and weights. William was still awake at this point because I have so much to get done when he naps, that I had to do it an hour earlier. He helped me warm up by doing the arm crosses and windmills with me. Then he just wanted to try to use my 3lb weights to tone his little arms. I wish I could have paused for a picture.

I did better today, then yesterday but still did not finish. How hard is it for a person to finish 20 minutes of exercise? I mean seriously? I can do lots of things for 20 minutes but this video is somehow pushing me away from it. My heart was pounding and I was huffing and puffing and sweating. I made it through 2 full circuts before I called it quits. And I had to push at the end of the second circut. I guess that is what she wants you to do, correct? I watched them do the third circut as I stretched and cooled down. I thought I was going to be sick at the end, haha! Man, she kicks my butt. I really hope that tomorrow I can make it through all three of them. I'd like to be able to know that I can push myself for a full 20 minutes. I am giving myself two more days to finish the whole routine though. I dont want to say that I have to finish the whole thing tomorrow, but i'd like to.

I guess I am way more out of shape then I realized. This makes me feel bad because I want to be out on the fields again. Coaching the soccer team and I realized today that there is no way I could do that. Back in high school and even after I was so in shape. I was heavier but I could do all kinds of exercise and not feel as tired as I feel right now. Soccer was my life in school. When Chad was old enough to play, i was coaching his team for a few years. I know that I wouldnt be able to keep up if I were out there now and that is not where I want to be. So I have a goal. At first I thought that it was to lose weight and look as pretty as all those skinny girls at the lake, but now it is to just be able to run round with my kids and not feel winded or feel like my heart is going to stop.

I CAN DO IT! I know I can!!!